So today I thought I'd write my blog about something that I experience on a fairly regular basis, that something is depression. Now I don't think I'm clinically depressed but I do suffer from it on a regular basis, and when I do suffer from it it doesn't last very long. But what it does do it affects me pretty deeply for the moment that I am experiencing it. Take today for instance, today I am at a point where I'm a little sad that I'm still single, and all of the people around me are either with somebody or in the process of dating or happily single. I think one of my biggest problems is, is that I have a bad picker. I inevitably pic man who are either not interested in me, or not interested in dating me. I mostly experience the first where I am interested in somebody and think they would make an amazing partner and they couldn't give me the time of day. I have always been attracted to those men who I am the opposite of what they are attracted to, usually they are attracted to Asians, smaller Latinos, or feminine personality, and I am none of those. So this is gotten me down , Today. For whatever the reason and it could be a multitude of reasons, today I picked to be depressed over the fact that I'm single. Normally I would think about this, be a little sad, get proactive, and hopefully make my life better with the actions that follow, but today instead of taking action I just want to curl up in bed and go to sleep forever. I know I'm depressed when the thing that I am upset seeing over leads me down a path to believe that it is the end of the world and my life is over. Now this may seem dramatic but when you're in the throes of depression it seems possible and plausible. It feels like it is hopeless there's no other answer but the one that my head is formulating. Going on medication is probably not the answer for me as it is for only happens once in a while
